Strumming Some Heartstrings Sunday, November 29, 2009
updates. at 2:25 PMwell.. i think i'm alright already. pouring all my emotions and crying do really helps. Thanks. =) however i cannot promise that thought will not come back again. like it always does, without me even knowing it. btw night's over. got weekends off. Friday with colleagues at Sakae as VIP. heh Saturday with Hazel and Xinyi at Kitty Lab and IT fair. damn cute kitty everywhere. then chilling and clubbing at Double O with Wanshi, Xinyi and Ivy. today? prolly kbox with Xinyi and Hazel. anyway schedule's up. alrights.. xoxo, you know you love me Saturday, November 28, 2009
secret at 10:49 AMtoo many people know about it. so it's not a secret anymore. i shall keep mum from now on. and plan a perfect plan. right now, on the verge. xoxo, you know you love me Tuesday, November 24, 2009
=) at 9:36 PM这次我走开 再没有话要说出来 我不想再期待走下去 还能多精彩 我不了解你 怎能心安也抓不住你的倔强 可是我知道你 你为什么说谎 你说你还在 一分一秒也没走开 我想留在这里 可是这一切已太晚 我不能再像从前一样 为我们的明天疯狂 你不必解释 你为什么说谎 你不能说 我没有爱过 说我没 等过 难过 我也想说 也许能重来 我却还是沉默 你一直问我的心到底在不在 问我怎能不遗憾就丢失爱 而我的泪怎么就流下来 xoxo, you know you love me happy pills. at 5:31 PM my daily dose of happy pills. =) i'm still in a very low mood. talked to few friends but that do no help. well not really talk because whenever they go to the topic, i laughed it off. am really thinking that i've become ah piao.
xoxo, you know you love me Friday, November 20, 2009
i hate janey. at 7:14 PMi hate the soft-hearted me. i hate the indecisive me. i hate the easily-frustated me. i hate the whining me. i hate the lazy me. basically, i hate everything about myself. i hate being Janey. so friends, tell me the point of continuing. because i'm really lost now. but i have one good point, i know how to hide my emotions and face my friends and 'ANG' family. too much emo posts can bore people, i know. i'm also waiting for a happy one. xoxo, you know you love me Wednesday, November 18, 2009
STM at 5:47 PMi tend to have a very bad memory. like sometimes i can forget which key to use for my house door. but i always got constantly reminded of somethings which i wanted to forget. it pretty torturing and the thought is occupying all my brain cells now. i nearly put my words into actions. 2nd week of being 21 is still as bad. i should have ended it that time. then 'Jane Peh' will become a history, which i might like it. so how should i start? xoxo, you know you love me Sunday, November 15, 2009
nightmare at 5:32 PMsleeping had always been my favourite pastime. but now, i dont dare to fall asleep as nightmare will happen. it make me breathless, as though i'm going to leave soon it make me feel tortured, as though millions of knives pierce thru my skin. it make me cry but no tears can flow. i cant move on or rest either. xoxo, you know you love me Saturday, November 14, 2009
not worthy. at 3:39 PMi thought if i try harder, everybody will be happy. but i realise, that's not the fact. the fact is, they dont even need me at all. xoxo, you know you love me Friday, November 13, 2009
gone at 1:54 AMi really tried so hard till i'm worn out. but i still failed. xoxo, you know you love me Wednesday, November 11, 2009
bad bad day at 1:54 AMthe crack will still remain there no matter how you tried to mend it. no point. just like how mine become so deep over the years. it will not be perfect anymore. xoxo, you know you love me Tuesday, November 10, 2009
wake up! at 3:13 PMstop dreaming, Janey! no one will fall for you, and even if it happens, the relationship will not work out. stay focused of your job. you need to concentrate on your career and move higher. then you can say BYE and go to that place u yearn for. you can get lots of moolah and no more worries again. Remember, no more thinking about of relationships and you can be happy even if you are ALONE. your 21st birthday wish will not come true. =) xoxo, you know you love me crap day at 1:29 AM well.. today was a real bad day. i always got this whenever i came back from long leave. total crap. schedule's up. alrights.. xoxo, you know you love me Sunday, November 08, 2009
random at 5:14 PMheh.. did some changes to my profile, spent time to type all out! so meeting Shirley later. and i'm going to start work tml! alrights.. xoxo, you know you love me Saturday, November 07, 2009
celebrations of Phrase 2.1 at 1:11 PMwoohoo! i have to blog about my birthday. but it will not be a damn long post. refer FB for the whole set. fyi, 1st celebration starts on 29th Oct and ended on 4th Nov. heh Janey's Phrase 2.1 celebrations. Thursday, 29th October 2009. Tao's restaurant with 1st batch of TTSH colleagues. Saturday, 31st October 2009. Halloween surprise by Judokas at Hotel Re! Sunday, 1st November 2009. Buffet with 'ANG' family. Tuesday, 3rd November 2009. Dozo restaurant with Dearies & co. Wednesday, 4th November 2009. Changi Airport T3 Earl's Swensens with 2nd batch of TTSH colleagues. do note that 30th oct and 2nd nov not avaliable. cos 30th i went kbox with Xinyi and Edelynn had not send me photos on 2nd nov. ok i'm done. Jin Yin's celebration today. xoxo, you know you love me Friday, November 06, 2009
cravings~~!!! at 12:01 AMoh yes. for the 1st time i wanted to go back to work. CRAP. someone please satisfy my cravings! BBQ chicken wings please fly here now to Hougang! i finally finished wrapping my Conan-look-alike(Mr Hao Nan Ren) heh ok 3more days to work plus weekly nights. alrights.. xoxo, you know you love me Thursday, November 05, 2009
celebrations5 at 1:31 AMwoohoo! celebrations' finally done. will do a post on it and another post on my presents. i can stay at home till Sunday! YAY~! =) alrights.. xoxo, you know you love me Wednesday, November 04, 2009
- at 1:43 AMsorry but i have to say. looking thru the photos from 29th October, i had never really 'smile' happily. FUCK. xoxo, you know you love me Happy 21st, Janey! at 12:22 AM woohoo! HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO JANEY! the actual day with Dearies & co. no pangx2 today, SeeQY joined us. i've really enjoyed. =) the last one tml. like finally. alrights.. xoxo, you know you love me Tuesday, November 03, 2009
1st post of twentyone. at 12:00 AMwell.. am officially twentyone now. the start to freedom as what adults say. i really hate being 21. i need to be more responsible for all my actions. i need to make decision on my own. i cannot cry and whine like a child anymore. i cannot go emo so easily. i dont like to be so legalise for everything. i hate being labelled as 'adult' although i maybe laughing and saying 'wo lao le'. i felt lots of uncertaintly. for the rest of my 20 years, i had never felt so lost before. it's like going into another stage of life and i'm scared it will get mudane and stops there. i seen thru 'adult' life. mostly worries more than happiness. and people's wishes to me is getting a boyfriend. HMM. i choose to remain as a childult not because i dont want to grow up. i just hate adult. adults are just becoming more childish and no life. ok i shall stop. maybe being 21 doesnt seem so bad afterall. anyway, Phrase 2.1 starts now. i'll do lots of changes. and that thought will still remain there. alrights.. xoxo, you know you love me Monday, November 02, 2009
twentyone at 11:53 PMwoohoo! i going to be 21! ok continue later xoxo, you know you love me back to old self. at 3:44 PM well.. i feel bad. this is the punishment for enjoying. fuck. shall go back to old Janey. xoxo, you know you love me celebrations4 at 12:20 PM woohoo! celebration with 'ANG' family yesterday. i got the key finally! =) and it's TOMORROW! wo lao le! alrights.. xoxo, you know you love me Sunday, November 01, 2009
celebrations3 at 12:34 PMwoohoo! massive celebration by SGS gang and Judokas! although some flop happened but i really appreciate everything. felt guilty toward Judokas. REALLY. well 3 more celebrations then i'll stay at home for the rest of AL. alrights.. xoxo, you know you love me |
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