Cheers.

I'm Jehanne Janey Jane. Birthday on 3rd November 1988 and still a childult, a term invented for the only me.
I'm a scorpio and i do really bite, but not in front of you of course.
My emotions are poorly controlled, but not being bipolar to that extend, it will plunges down to its lowest and it gets real hard to be on the top.
Honestly, i may look happy but deep down, there bound to be things troubling me.

My family consists of my mother, elder brother and me. Yes no big man around and i'm actually glad that he disappeared. However, that seems to mark my character in some ways.
Anyway my brother do act like my big man sometimes, cos he's 8yrs older than me!
Not to forget, i have my 'ANG' family which consists of 20+ people and it's still growing in numbers. They are my soul support.

I graduated with Dip. in Nursing and so you can guess my job now. Currently working in one of the ward at TTSH. Like what other adults said, the employers are always the meanies.
I'm really unlucky to have 3 unreasonable managers above me, crap but my colleagues are a wonderful batch. This made me stayed on.
I love this job seriously, crapping with my uncles, providing care to the frail, discuss problems with colleagues and lots more.
I actually desired to become a Pharmacist but blamed on myself, I never studied real hard.
Fret not, i found the route where I want to retire at. HAHA

I have friends whom i knew for freaking 8yrs+ and also as short as like 2yrs+.
Nobody can replace people in SGS gang, we grew up together from being a student to now, working in the society.
My NYP classmates whom we worked together to help each other to graduate, my attachment mates who helped me to run away from lecturers.
My NYP Judo people whom stood with me whenever i fell.
Then, Dearies & co which started during working days, and mind you, all of us actually knew each other since poly days. We build a very strong friendship amazingly and i love them manymany.
How can I not mention about my TTSH colleagues, consists of different batches. They gave me advice when i met with real bad problems.

I love to visit museum but my friends think i'm a weirdo. my wish is to visit all the museum in Europe. It's real fun to know about history and other stuffs. I learned a lot during each visits.

I love travelling with friends and i'm really easy going when it comes to deciding which places to go. As long as I'm able to buy sourvenirs back. HEH

I love blue, red, black, green, brown and grey.

I love tweety, thomas the train, good luck carebear and conan.

I love chicken wings to the max, and pepper on almost all my food, and so the 'pepperqueen' is invented!

I love square, hexagon and other funny shapes.

I love winter the most, and snowflakes is my adore.

I love hanging out with friends, or just stay at home and watch my online drama.

I love surprises!

So this is my life, read my blog, FB and twitter for more.
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i'm back finally... at 4:46 PM

yoyo...

as u can c...i'm alrite now..perfectly alrite...heh...but still learning to let go my past...n adapt to all e new changes...

hmm...tests coming in few weeks...aw...it's too fast man...i'm still not prepared!!but after everything will be my 2 weeks break!!wahahaha...bless mi man...

well...i think i nv tell wat happened after my birthday yea...receive a big TWEETY from my dearie hazel...hohoho...n it become a member of my family now...den a nike dunks from my boy...lalala...it's my favourite of course...

nth much happen for that 2 depressing weeks...den it's 3rd mth...fast rite..he bought a necklace for mi...heh...i dunno wat to give...so just a famous amos cookies..hey...he like lor...cos he can eat...-_-"...watched world cyber games..wah...it's amazing...n those who won...i reali congrats them man...they have to compete wif alot of countries man...oh ya...singapore was in finals for 'dead or alive'...but japan won in end...it's alrite...

i have to say this...the china guy who won 'warcraft 3' was damn cute...hohoho..=p

den hx birthday...finally i touch e ball man...it's been 1 yr...omG...my skills deproved of course...

bh finished his exams alreali!!so later going out wif him..zel..hx..gavin..
lalalala...

going to buy back my wallet n phone again...yea...they are my favourites...

well...i experience insecurity again...haiz...but should be my own problem..scold mi man...it's always mi!!

oh ya...nv mention i met up wif tianlee...lolz...sorry man...ate dinner at a cafe...yea...n do our normal rountine...talk!!

i need to study from now on...oh ya...my attachment at ttsh...argh...


f**king useless mi! at 6:29 PM

yea..

it's proven..I'M USELESS..

i canot do a single things correct n beautiful...i canot be e 'mi' after that incident...i canot make my fren happy...i canot concentrate on my lessons...i canot find time for my sgs buddies...i canot train judo cos of my irritating chest pain...i canot work for extra income cos of my long hrs of study n attachments...i'm always groaning about my lost n make my fren so irritated...i nv tried to share their problems as i think my lost is e greatest...i canot make my boy happy...i canot do everything..

i'm meaningless to this world...seriously...i wan to disappear...

however...i cant be always saying all these things...pals around mi will get damn irritated n stay away from mi...so i think i need counselling...or maybe a listening ear..who will volunteer??

just to summarise..i'm utterly useless...n selfish too...just avoid mi if u dun wan mi as a fren...i'll understand...

i'll luv my pals forever..n my boy too..


world of depression at 12:14 AM

here again..

i felt like walking corpse...fake mi...damn fake...althought i can laugh like hell wif my fren in sch...but when nite sets in...i'm back again..everything seems to change around mi...i felt weird...i'm not familiar wif my surroundings...i felt insecure...n who were always stands by mi..pals are busy wif their own things...i guess i'll need to pull myself out...or i'll go deeper n deeper...

i felt something missing...i cant reali enjoy my life...i find no meaning...so can this be e reason of suicide...or can i choose to become anorexic..perhaps i'll feel better??

however pals were get sad or irritated by my thoughts...n my dear will be disappointed too...but i just couldn't get out of this...seriously...

so my dear...i do reali miss ya...i wrote in all my books...u saw yea...but i just dun have e feeling to msg...i wan to ask u about ur stuff n blah...but the feel is not there...not like last time...so even if i msg u lesser...my heart is wif ya...

btw...think i saw a bulimic case...is it spelled like that...i'll choose anorexia...it's cleaner anyway...

so i guess i do reali need sometimes b4 i can reali forget that incidence...but the dateline is so near...aw...

that's all...bless mi...

=|


half left.. at 9:24 PM

haiz..

i'm not mi anymore...half of mi was stolen...the other half is left wif no strength to listen to lesson...she's always in her space...gone...half gone...it will only come back when all e things were found...which is impossible...

lost...all memories lost...70 over photos...70 over msg...3 videos...13 songs...6 ringtones...all gone...

ic lost..ez link lost...have to spend money again...which is i reali dun wan...argh!

i cant go on anymore...wif only half of mi left...

pls...revive mi...by returning e lost mi...

=(


my phone!! at 10:40 AM

haiz...so many things happen..

i lost my phone n wallet..

my chest pain is gettin worse..

my leg is still not alrite..

no feeling to update a happy entry...

that's all..

=(


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MI!! at 5:32 AM

yo...

at zel house now...hohoho...MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!damn happy lah...lalala...received my 1st present from attachment frens...den xy...after training went to cwp eat...went home around 11 something...was bathing den thinking of when to meet zel they all...heard phone rang...came out of bathroom...mother opening door...i keep asking who...den i saw candle lights...den a red shirt person walk in...whoa...IT'S GAVIN.ZEL.HX.LEON...omG...i'm very shocked...wahahaha...they bought a cake...=)talk abit den went to eat prata...yea..chilling now...talking about our past...

hmm...taken my yellow belt yesterday...felt reali glad...but i'll train more...now i reali need to rest my leg...heh

later going out...yea!!my nike dunks...;)

17 yrs of living...e sec 3-4 life is e best moment of time i've had...now aso lah...wif my nyp pals...n of course my dear idiot..