Cheers.

I'm Jehanne Janey Jane. Birthday on 3rd November 1988 and still a childult, a term invented for the only me.
I'm a scorpio and i do really bite, but not in front of you of course.
My emotions are poorly controlled, but not being bipolar to that extend, it will plunges down to its lowest and it gets real hard to be on the top.
Honestly, i may look happy but deep down, there bound to be things troubling me.

My family consists of my mother, elder brother and me. Yes no big man around and i'm actually glad that he disappeared. However, that seems to mark my character in some ways.
Anyway my brother do act like my big man sometimes, cos he's 8yrs older than me!
Not to forget, i have my 'ANG' family which consists of 20+ people and it's still growing in numbers. They are my soul support.

I graduated with Dip. in Nursing and so you can guess my job now. Currently working in one of the ward at TTSH. Like what other adults said, the employers are always the meanies.
I'm really unlucky to have 3 unreasonable managers above me, crap but my colleagues are a wonderful batch. This made me stayed on.
I love this job seriously, crapping with my uncles, providing care to the frail, discuss problems with colleagues and lots more.
I actually desired to become a Pharmacist but blamed on myself, I never studied real hard.
Fret not, i found the route where I want to retire at. HAHA

I have friends whom i knew for freaking 8yrs+ and also as short as like 2yrs+.
Nobody can replace people in SGS gang, we grew up together from being a student to now, working in the society.
My NYP classmates whom we worked together to help each other to graduate, my attachment mates who helped me to run away from lecturers.
My NYP Judo people whom stood with me whenever i fell.
Then, Dearies & co which started during working days, and mind you, all of us actually knew each other since poly days. We build a very strong friendship amazingly and i love them manymany.
How can I not mention about my TTSH colleagues, consists of different batches. They gave me advice when i met with real bad problems.

I love to visit museum but my friends think i'm a weirdo. my wish is to visit all the museum in Europe. It's real fun to know about history and other stuffs. I learned a lot during each visits.

I love travelling with friends and i'm really easy going when it comes to deciding which places to go. As long as I'm able to buy sourvenirs back. HEH

I love blue, red, black, green, brown and grey.

I love tweety, thomas the train, good luck carebear and conan.

I love chicken wings to the max, and pepper on almost all my food, and so the 'pepperqueen' is invented!

I love square, hexagon and other funny shapes.

I love winter the most, and snowflakes is my adore.

I love hanging out with friends, or just stay at home and watch my online drama.

I love surprises!

So this is my life, read my blog, FB and twitter for more.
=)





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busy week at 11:05 PM

hoho..

i forgot to mention that today is the start of my annual leave.
i'm not happy to have that seriously.
cos i feel something might go wrong after i come back.

anyway, this whole week is fully booked,
haha

went to order cake with Shirley today.
facial and gathering at Naresh's house tml.
meetup with Song Yun and Christine on Wed.
piano, mani/pedi session with Shirley and Night Safari with dearies.
Janey's and Shirley's Birthday Chalet from Fri to Sun.
piano grade 2 theory exam on Sat.

i just hope that nothing will change during my leave.
if not i will have to get use to everything again.

alrights..


annual leave at 3:22 PM

woo~

finally finished my night.
it was so tiring.

schedule up.
check it out under biodata.
=)

i guessed i will be very free.
outings please!

alrights..


random at 2:43 AM

hmm..

2nd night today.
lots of things to give.
12am, 2am, 4am meds.
irritating.

pay comes in already.
but i suppose most of it will go to chalet.
=(

alrights..


annual leave at 4:59 PM

To Catherine, Elsa, Tang, Carmen, Jessica and those who care.

schedule for next week.
27/10[mon] - PH
28/10 - 1/11[tue-sat] - AL
2/11[sun] - DO

will be updating schedule in my calender.
check out 'schedule' under biodata.

heh


jes's 20th at 3:17 PM

yoyoyo.
a 'happier' post.

firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JESSICA TENG SIEW FURN!

had dinner at Manhatten with all her friends.



Elsa and me shared a platter.
very filling!





Elsa and me.



with the birthday girl.



then we started doing stupid actions cos of Elsa.
hah=)

then we surprise dear birthday girl..



with a cake.
Elsa and me bought it when we sneaked out halfway.
LOL



last photo before we left.



Kleo and Eli came after our dinner.

next is clubbing at Phuture!
woo~



Jessica, with another birthday boy drinking Long Island.



with Fang Yi's friend.



Elsa, Jessica, Tang, Me and Zi Gui.



Elsa, Tang and me outside toilet.



with one unknown angmoh.



we danced like hell, and i swear, this's the 1st time we hugged each other like lovers.
LOL love everybody to the max.

music stopped at 4am.
roamed outside and finally got home at 7am.

-------------------------------------

thanks for all your concern.
but i'm still very sad and angry with myself.
let's just hope that SHE can help me with it.

meeting Desmond, Edelynn and Guang for movie later.

alrights..


worthless at 10:55 PM

W O R T H L E S S.

now i wonder am i really at fault?
or they really hate me so much that they want me to go?

i'm afraid of being alone now.
i will indulge myself in work to forget everything.
i will meet up with friends and laugh as much as possible as i'm wasting time if i sulk my face in front of them.
i will cling up to mother if i'm at home with her.
i dont allow myself to be alone now.
thoughts run really wild.

i start to think that it's actually my fault for all the illness.
i am really useless.


reality. at 4:54 PM

people said that reality is always opposite from dreams.
indeed, it's true.

20/10[mon] - AM
21/10[tue] - AM
22/10[wed] - DO
23/10[thu] - ND
24/10[fri] - ND
25/10[sat] - ND
26/10[sun] - SD


cold at 11:52 AM

it's time.
i need to go back tml,
to face everyone's cold eyes.


empty. at 1:29 AM

E M P T Y
is the word.

i felt so different from people now.
they go to work and out to enjoy as per normal routine.
i can only stay at home and stare at my laptop or day dream.
i want to go out, but bus rides make me giddy now.
i dont feel energised.
i felt so useless and guilty.
colleagues blamed me although i just came back to work.

friends, yes they were around.
i had a good laugh.
but everything was just
T E M P O A R Y.
when everything ends, i'm still the same old me.

family, of course they are there for me.
although mother will call everyday to check on me,
or brother will say all these happened was to block big mishaps.
i just couldnt bring myself to say my true feelings out and be like a small child.
i will just whine abit and smile as though im happy to have a long rest.

i'm just a nineteen going twenty in 1month's time girl.
why must i get bullied over at workplace where other girls of my age can still study and lives in comfort.
i want to whine and complain to mother whenever i met with any hardship or injuries too.
seems like just because i'm a working teen i have to be like an adult.
adult means independent in everything and a strong look.
but i'm not an adult! and that's a fact.

after 6months of working.
i'm not ready to work in society.
the true colours of society.
and no matter how much i try to accept it, it will never change.

i feel empty.
and i want to go back to school again.


useless at 12:06 PM

blame me for everything.


no strength. at 12:43 PM

haiz..

finally i could sit up and typed this post.
i was so sick for the past 2 days.
blame that TTSH *** stall.
the thought of it made me pukes.

but i'm still not feeling well.

i dont wish to go back.
but i miss him lots!!

alrights..


alone at 10:57 AM

i felt alone.
i felt discouraged to go to work everyday.
people seems to show their true colours.
and yes, they were just colleagues.

i just want to stay at home everyday.
i am very tired.


not happy. at 12:01 PM

well..

so it's October now.
still dont feel good in the ward.

was being called back to work on Friday which was supposed to be my PH.
dreaded and whined whole day.
luckily Huiling was around too!

went to Kbox with Wanshi and Kai Yun on Thursday.
we went crazy with all the rock songs.

anyway, next week schedule.
mon[6/10] - PM
tue[7/10] - AM
wed[8/10] - AM
thu[9/10] - DO
fri[10/10] - PM
sat[11/10] - PM
sun[12/10] - AM

i am not happy.
i guessed i was never happy for once.

alrights..