Cheers.

I'm Jehanne Janey Jane. Birthday on 3rd November 1988 and still a childult, a term invented for the only me.
I'm a scorpio and i do really bite, but not in front of you of course.
My emotions are poorly controlled, but not being bipolar to that extend, it will plunges down to its lowest and it gets real hard to be on the top.
Honestly, i may look happy but deep down, there bound to be things troubling me.

My family consists of my mother, elder brother and me. Yes no big man around and i'm actually glad that he disappeared. However, that seems to mark my character in some ways.
Anyway my brother do act like my big man sometimes, cos he's 8yrs older than me!
Not to forget, i have my 'ANG' family which consists of 20+ people and it's still growing in numbers. They are my soul support.

I graduated with Dip. in Nursing and so you can guess my job now. Currently working in one of the ward at TTSH. Like what other adults said, the employers are always the meanies.
I'm really unlucky to have 3 unreasonable managers above me, crap but my colleagues are a wonderful batch. This made me stayed on.
I love this job seriously, crapping with my uncles, providing care to the frail, discuss problems with colleagues and lots more.
I actually desired to become a Pharmacist but blamed on myself, I never studied real hard.
Fret not, i found the route where I want to retire at. HAHA

I have friends whom i knew for freaking 8yrs+ and also as short as like 2yrs+.
Nobody can replace people in SGS gang, we grew up together from being a student to now, working in the society.
My NYP classmates whom we worked together to help each other to graduate, my attachment mates who helped me to run away from lecturers.
My NYP Judo people whom stood with me whenever i fell.
Then, Dearies & co which started during working days, and mind you, all of us actually knew each other since poly days. We build a very strong friendship amazingly and i love them manymany.
How can I not mention about my TTSH colleagues, consists of different batches. They gave me advice when i met with real bad problems.

I love to visit museum but my friends think i'm a weirdo. my wish is to visit all the museum in Europe. It's real fun to know about history and other stuffs. I learned a lot during each visits.

I love travelling with friends and i'm really easy going when it comes to deciding which places to go. As long as I'm able to buy sourvenirs back. HEH

I love blue, red, black, green, brown and grey.

I love tweety, thomas the train, good luck carebear and conan.

I love chicken wings to the max, and pepper on almost all my food, and so the 'pepperqueen' is invented!

I love square, hexagon and other funny shapes.

I love winter the most, and snowflakes is my adore.

I love hanging out with friends, or just stay at home and watch my online drama.

I love surprises!

So this is my life, read my blog, FB and twitter for more.
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i hate janey. at 7:14 PM

i hate the soft-hearted me.
i hate the indecisive me.
i hate the easily-frustated me.
i hate the whining me.
i hate the lazy me.







basically, i hate everything about myself.
i hate being Janey.







so friends, tell me the point of continuing.
because i'm really lost now.




but i have one good point,
i know how to hide my emotions and face my friends and 'ANG' family.




too much emo posts can bore people, i know.
i'm also waiting for a happy one.


STM at 5:47 PM

i tend to have a very bad memory.
like sometimes i can forget which key to use for my house door.









but i always got constantly reminded of somethings which i wanted to forget.
it pretty torturing and the thought is occupying all my brain cells now.
i nearly put my words into actions.







2nd week of being 21 is still as bad.
i should have ended it that time.
then 'Jane Peh' will become a history, which i might like it.
so how should i start?


nightmare at 5:32 PM

sleeping had always been my favourite pastime.







but now, i dont dare to fall asleep as nightmare will happen.

it make me breathless, as though i'm going to leave soon
it make me feel tortured, as though millions of knives pierce thru my skin.
it make me cry but no tears can flow.




i cant move on or rest either.


not worthy. at 3:39 PM

i thought if i try harder, everybody will be happy.











but i realise, that's not the fact.








the fact is, they dont even need me at all.


gone at 1:54 AM

i really tried so hard till i'm worn out.

















but i still failed.


bad bad day at 1:54 AM

the crack will still remain there no matter how you tried to mend it.
no point.

just like how mine become so deep over the years.
it will not be perfect anymore.


wake up! at 3:13 PM

stop dreaming, Janey!
no one will fall for you, and even if it happens, the relationship will not work out.

stay focused of your job.
you need to concentrate on your career and move higher.
then you can say BYE and go to that place u yearn for.
you can get lots of moolah and no more worries again.

Remember, no more thinking about of relationships and you can be happy even if you are ALONE.

your 21st birthday wish will not come true.
=)


crap day at 1:29 AM

well..

today was a real bad day.
i always got this whenever i came back from long leave.
total crap.

schedule's up.

alrights..