Cheers.

I'm Jehanne Janey Jane. Birthday on 3rd November 1988 and still a childult, a term invented for the only me.
I'm a scorpio and i do really bite, but not in front of you of course.
My emotions are poorly controlled, but not being bipolar to that extend, it will plunges down to its lowest and it gets real hard to be on the top.
Honestly, i may look happy but deep down, there bound to be things troubling me.

My family consists of my mother, elder brother and me. Yes no big man around and i'm actually glad that he disappeared. However, that seems to mark my character in some ways.
Anyway my brother do act like my big man sometimes, cos he's 8yrs older than me!
Not to forget, i have my 'ANG' family which consists of 20+ people and it's still growing in numbers. They are my soul support.

I graduated with Dip. in Nursing and so you can guess my job now. Currently working in one of the ward at TTSH. Like what other adults said, the employers are always the meanies.
I'm really unlucky to have 3 unreasonable managers above me, crap but my colleagues are a wonderful batch. This made me stayed on.
I love this job seriously, crapping with my uncles, providing care to the frail, discuss problems with colleagues and lots more.
I actually desired to become a Pharmacist but blamed on myself, I never studied real hard.
Fret not, i found the route where I want to retire at. HAHA

I have friends whom i knew for freaking 8yrs+ and also as short as like 2yrs+.
Nobody can replace people in SGS gang, we grew up together from being a student to now, working in the society.
My NYP classmates whom we worked together to help each other to graduate, my attachment mates who helped me to run away from lecturers.
My NYP Judo people whom stood with me whenever i fell.
Then, Dearies & co which started during working days, and mind you, all of us actually knew each other since poly days. We build a very strong friendship amazingly and i love them manymany.
How can I not mention about my TTSH colleagues, consists of different batches. They gave me advice when i met with real bad problems.

I love to visit museum but my friends think i'm a weirdo. my wish is to visit all the museum in Europe. It's real fun to know about history and other stuffs. I learned a lot during each visits.

I love travelling with friends and i'm really easy going when it comes to deciding which places to go. As long as I'm able to buy sourvenirs back. HEH

I love blue, red, black, green, brown and grey.

I love tweety, thomas the train, good luck carebear and conan.

I love chicken wings to the max, and pepper on almost all my food, and so the 'pepperqueen' is invented!

I love square, hexagon and other funny shapes.

I love winter the most, and snowflakes is my adore.

I love hanging out with friends, or just stay at home and watch my online drama.

I love surprises!

So this is my life, read my blog, FB and twitter for more.
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ward days.=) at 11:35 PM

YO.

so this few days were in ward.
sometimes i'm so busy till i wished i had wings to fly.
sometimes i was so free till i go to Intranet and read up nursing notes.
and the good thing is Naresh and Riduan keep on entertaining me.
LOL

had resuscitation drill this afternoon.
the session was super FUN with Elsa, Melissa and Catherine.

YAY. Zouk tml.
=D

alrights..


sakua.YEF.shopping at 9:54 PM

oh well..

photo-blog again. HAH

Friday 25th April. DM & Asthma Management.

as i mentioned on the previous entry, we were doing budget breakdown.



Janey. Tang. Melissa



the moving MOLE on Tang.
LOL.

Friday 25th April. Sakura with Judokas.

went to town with Jessica before meeting them.
bought a bag with my 1st pay. =)



Wanshi. Xinyi. Ivy



Subi. Peh. Jeremy



Wanshi the big-eater.



we were the most noisy people during training times. =)

Saturday 26th April. Yamaha Electone Festival Heats.

worked from 7am to 11am.
was doing SN & AN job as Riduan was busy with his assessment.
met up with Elsa and Tang and lunched at Delifrance while waiting for Jessica.



Xinyi, Gavin, Elsa and Tang went to give us support.
i handed Elsa and Tang my camera to record our performance.
so most of the photos were theirs. LOL


they are trying to imitate 'flying animals'


Jessica and me.

we were the 1st team to perform.
so expected technical problem = volume.
ARGH.
and i couldnt believe 'that' group went in to the finals.

dinner at MOS burger.


Jessica, Tang and Elsa went off.
Hazel went off to meet her boyfriend.
Xinyi and me went to kbox and sang till 1am.
at least i managed to 'sing' out my frustration.

Today 27th April. Shopping with Elyn and Guoyang.

met at Elyn's house and off to Orchard.


Guoyang came later and we dined at Baker's Inc.






the fabulous dessert.


Elyn and me.


Elyn and Guoyang.

then off to Far East and start our spree.
i'm back with a dress and 2 tops. =D

salary is finishing after settling all the bills.
GOODNESS.

and i demand my voice to be back immediately!
no more coughing please.

8.30am to 5pm tml.
weird timing.

alrights..


firstever salary.electone heats. at 12:02 AM

heh..

today was DM and Asthma management talk.
i nearly dozed off.
so Tang and me keep planning our budget breakdown.
LOL

oh yes.
i've got my FIRST ever full-time job salary!
=))

met up with Wanshi, Xinyi, Ivy, Subi, Jeremy and Peh for buffet.
FUN session!

tml will be the Electone Heats.
i am really very scared.
hope everything goes well~

alrights..


SMALL LU =) at 10:33 PM

yoyoyoyo..

i'm getting better already.
YAY!
but there's still dry cough.

so this week is mostly spent in ward.
FUN is the word i can see, for i've already know all the staffs there.
and they do really take care of me.
the doctors there even recognise me.
=)

met up with Elyn on Tuesday.
Chomp Chomp finally.



this is what we ordered. we are like some hungry ghost. LOL

then we slacked at Coffee Bean. camwhored.



Electone practice earlier on. it's very fun and i'm very afraid now.
pray that there will be no mistake.

oh yes.
now small LU is love.



AHH. he is sooooo cute. =D

alrights..


i miss you. at 9:14 PM

heh..

i'm still in the same state.
flu+cough+no voice

today was on course again.
with Elsa, Tang, Melissa and Catherine.

back to ward tml and Wednesday.
shacked.

no matter where i am or what i do,
the 1st thing that came to my mind is you.
i miss you lots.
and i know that's so wrong.

alrights..


sick.jee celebration.orientation. at 11:10 AM

oh well..

massive photo-blog.

just say i'm a pig.
i slept from yesterday 4.30pm to today 9.30am
total of 17hours.
LOL.

let me blog from yesterday to last Thursday.

Saturday 19th April. Chest Tube workshop.

we have to report at 8.30am. so irritating. Elsa, Tang, Mel and me was trying to stay awake if not we might be chased out of the class. Tang and me was down with flu and i cant speak. nearly wanted to go home cos i kept stoning there and nothing went in. assessment after our lunch. i practically try to speak a whole sentence but failed cos my voice kept went out of tune. all of them keep laughing at me. TAO YAN.



that's me yesterday. the very-sick-side of me.

Friday 18th April. Ward Induction & Jee's 20th celebration.

back to the ward from 7am-3pm. had fun cos i knew everybody and they really take care of me well.

met up with Xinyi earlier to get a present for him. ate and rushed off to meet the rest at Raffles Station at 8am. was quite pissed off as some were late. off to Boat Quay. settled at Darren Lau's friend's pub. opened 2 Martell and 1 Black Label. was having flu so Gavin bought a box of tissue.
sang and played and cheered. went home at 1plus.





guys and girls who came.





play and play and play. =)





drinking Black Label neat.



the yearly must-have stingray.



small group photos.



the couple.



the birthday boy. Choo Jie Wei a.k.a Jee.



me and Xinyi.



me and Huixian.



me and Hong Yun.



me and Darren Lau.



me and Jee.



me and Gavin.



me and Darren Tng.



me and Leon.



me and Teck Kan.



lastly, the kissing party.
there are more, but sorry, PRIVATE. =)

Thursday 17th April. Orientation programme, ward induction & Electone Practice.

as usual, they crapped and played.



then off to our respective ward and Level 10 had assessment.



rushed off to Yamaha for practice.
then trained home at 8plus.



Wednesday 16 April. Orientation programme.



we had the 'I AM NEW' badge.





in lecture hall.



make up for photo-shoot. LOL



lastly. the funny Tang.

Beautiful Girl practice later. our last practice with teacher.

alrights..


sick at 9:28 PM

goodness..

i'm down with bad cough and fever,
after days of late nights.

i should start taking the multivitamins again.
ARGH.

today went well.
finished assessment. =)

had fun during Beautiful Girl practice.

7am-3pm tml.
*PRAY.

alrights..


quick update. at 10:56 PM

hoo..

do a quick update.

today was not a good day for us.
Tang got scolded by sister.
scolded by the photographer.
got sarcatically said by the pin-man.

IRRITATING.

but we continued our camwhore.
mostly done by Kui.

met up with Elyn after my work.
waitied for her for 1hour.
i nearly fell asleep at the bus stop.

to Junction 8 for dinner.
discussed about her 21st birthday party.

photobucket is currently down so this explains no photos.

assessment tml.
beautiful girl practice tml.

very tired.

alrights..


the ugly love world. at 9:17 PM

yoyoyoyo..

today was like any other orientation day.
with stupid photos.



the funny Tang.
she will have one photo everyday which sends us LORL.



a better one. however what's Bonneh doing?



i dont understand this either.



Melissa and me joined in the fun. and we looked better than them. LOL

tml will be taking photos which will be put up in wards.
my freaking ugly hair! HMPHZ

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when people say we can learn things from watching shows, it's real.
i watched 十分爱 as introduced by Caixing on the coach back to Singapore.
a show by Alex Fong and Stephy Tang.
a very bastard guy show i can say.
Xinyi and me was so upset when the ending wasnt what we expected.

then i watched 独家试爱 yesterday, the 1st trilogy of 'the real love world'
as i watched, i began to understand everything.
so i believed i can be slightly better when it comes to relationship.

now i'm waiting for 我的最爱, which is the last trilogy.
but i hope it can continue on man, and show the true colours of the people in this generation.

go watch it people. i learned alot from the shows.
and i learned Cantonese too. =p
oh yes, Alex Fong is superduper cute!

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will be meeting Elyn tml.
YAY. i miss the DSL session. =)

alrights..


jane birthday.althar.orientation at 10:40 PM

heh..

photo-blog as promised. =)

12April2008 Saturday.
Jane's 21st Birthday Party at Costa Sands Pasir Ris.

there's only Grace, Eileen and me.



the birthday girl and her cake.



Althar gathering.
Hazel, Hong Yun, Xinyi, Bok Hwee, Wee Yong.

stayed there till 4plus.



13April2008 Sunday.
met up with Elyn at Coffee Bean for some serious talk.



Beautiful Girl practice with Hazel and Jee.
Xinyi came to be our audience.
dined at Pastamania.



14April2008 Today.
Job orientation.

they have ugly photos again. LOL



Level 10 nurses. [left to right]
Ward 10B - Melissa Xu and Catherine.
Ward 10A - Elsa
Ward 10D - Janey



Eileen and me.



Melissa Xu and me.



Janey.Jessica.Tang Wee



really had a fun day.
we had our clan now.

India mumbai prata clan.
Jessica - Bony d/o Thaipusam
Tang Wee - Kui d/o Deepavali
Melissa Xu - Mel d/o Mo Gor
Janey - Peh d/o Vanikam

not-able-to-find China clan.
Elsa - Zhang Zhong Ju
Carmen - Zhang Xiao Ju
Catherine - Zhang Jian Ju

HAHA.

alrights..


big fool at 10:30 PM

hur..

after Elyn analysed my problem today,
i realised that i'm really a FOOL.
i'm laughing at myself when she told me that people are aware of everything except me.

yes, i want to have a change.
so i try to accomodate to everybody.
in the end, i'm still the same but problems added.

after all these days,
Elyn, Eileen and Xinyi had told me lots of things to help me really understand the situation.
but honestly speaking, nobody actually understand how i felt.
i, myself, dont understand it either.
i know i had to let go before i can start anew.
however, the deep side of me still wants to hold on and try to solve it, thinking that it's only temporary.

goodness.
i did too many stupid things.
only left stabbing myself with a knife.

photo-blog tml.

alrights..


genting and orientation at 12:44 PM

hm..
photo-blog.

Genting trip. 4th April-6th April.
Xinyi, Caixing, Daniel, Chengyong, Jonathan.

1st day.
set off at 7am. my tv is spoiled so i cant watch any movies.
initially was alright, but when they keep going rounds and rounds, i felt nausea.



reached at 2pm.
then to Kenny Rogers for lunch.



checked in and rest. played bowling to kill time.
the tired us.



to mushroom farm for dinner.
and that's how heavy the fog is. [everybody keep saying it's the cloud! LOL]



to their clubbing place and slacked.
back to hotel room and waited for the guys to be back from casino.

had KFC for supper.
Xinyi and me had to sleep on the hard wood as we dont dare to face the mirror or the windows.

2nd day.
woke up at 6plus and saw sunrise.



went back to sleep and all woke up at 10plus.
got ready and had lunch at i-forgot-where.
and off to theme park.









this is how much i love Energizer.





back to hotel and took a nap.
to mushroom farm for dinner again.

slacked at Starbucks and camwhored.













the nice display.


the guys played dai-dee.
lots of stupid jokes.



our room layout and what the guys did in the room.



lights off at 4am, lousy guys.
Xinyi and me went to KFC for supper.



Xinyi and her bear shop.


3rd day.
woke up at 11am.
everybody rushed to escape from paying extra charges.
to Pizza Hut for lunch.





camwhore while waiting for bus.





reached Singapore at 10pm.

Job orientation on 11th April.
Jessica, Tang Wee, Elsa, Carmen, Melissa Xu.





they camwhored.





and we played Bingo to prevent falling asleep.
Jessica, Tang Wee, Melissa Xu and me from India prata shop.
and Elsa the Zhang.

Jessica and me.



met up with Xinyi after my work.
slacked around at Orchard and Changi Airport.



ended aruptly.
alrights..


ugly world at 3:32 AM

when i've decided to forget about everything,
i found out something.

i'm speechless.

so that's what friends means.


enough. at 10:09 PM

well..

i've been dozing off during class.
this is very bad.
i was not like this during student's time.
perhaps it might be a good thing to start early in ward.

so we learned on how to transfer patients safely and to protect our back at the same time.
joined Elsa and Tang Wee.
we had a fun time today and it really made me awake throughout.

tml will be a long day. AW.

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i'm still bothered about what had happened.
and i'm so tired already.
i guessed everybody dread my whining now.

i teared, i struggled, i screamed.

then i realised, that's you.
no matter how much i want to deny,
that's you.

so i'm going to let this matter pass.
i'll leave everything to Fate.
i just hope that we can still say 'Hi' when we see each other on streets rather then ignoring.

i'm going to bury myself in work to forget this fast.
allow me to weep in slience, for i really treasured this friendship lots.

alrights..


the cruel truth. at 9:16 PM

sheesh..

work was fine. we are going to have 1month orientation. everyday was 8am-5pm. so this results me keep dozing off during course. we were given lots of checklist to complete within 3months, lecture notes which look like encyclopedia and tonnes of assessment. oh yes, i'm back to ward 10D which was my PRCP ward. it's nice to see the staffs and doctors again but seeing the anorexic bee and big cap really send shivers down to my spine.

my brain said,
fucker guy who is really a bastard.
throws me away when he's bored or found a new one.
come back to me when he cant find anybody.
ignore me when i'm just in front of him.
i'm too naive to believe him.
i hate betrayer.

quote from a movie.
[you will have retribution as you dont believe people. you will not be able to find true love.]

my heart said,
i gave my everything for this friendship.
in the end i'm nothing in his eye.
i nearly gave him all to him.
it really hurts me when he gave me cold attitude.
i know i'm mad to keep playing with him to get near to Daniel.
i cannot understand why am i so affected by him.
we have declared everything, right?
it's so unfair.

Elyn said i'm a joke.
Xinyi said i should not bothered about him and move on.
Eileen said i should stop giving in too much.

i cant tolerate all this anymore.
everything is so unfair to me.
now i still have to put on a smile when actually i'm having breathing difficulties.
it's really too much to bear.

i'm really tired.
physically and emotionally.

genting updates tml.
i have no mood.

alrights..


back from genting. at 12:14 AM

yo..

i'm back from Genting yesterday at 11pm.
i'm starting work later at 8.30am.

today might be the last day i'm having my coloured hair.

updates will be done. =)

alrights..


genting later. at 12:27 AM

hoho..

i'm leaving for Genting later.
everything is packed but i'm still afraid that i'll left out something.
got to wake up at 5am.
and do a last check.

i hope this trip can be a real fulfilling one.
and get me ready for work when i come back.

=)

alrights..


blood results. at 10:53 PM

hmm..

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS' DAY.

blood results is back.
I DONT HAVE HIGH CHOLESTEROL! =D
in fact my HDL which is the 'good' cholesterol is higher than normal range.
*beaming~

but i have no Hepatits B antigen and antibody.
it's weird as i had booster jab 3years ago.
and 3rd aunt said that my body might not be able to react with the jab.
goodness. i'm in danger especially i'm working in healthcare environment.

forget it.
i'm going to start packing up.
oh yes.
i'm leaving for Genting on 4th April and will be back on 6th April.
treat it as the last getaway for this year.

met up with Elyn after her work.
somehow i see myself in her.
the forlorn look on her face.
i cant imagine how i will be on next Monday.
hope all the withdrawal symptoms will stop.

oh yes. our group name for YEF, ALIAS.

i have a major secret which i can tell no one.
this could ruin the both of us.
i was awake throughout.

alrights..